'Some days I don't know how to feel'

Updated: Dec 12, 2021

Well it's been a hot minute since I've posted on my blog. Since the whole pandemic broke out I feel like things have been a whirl wind. I've been hunkering down at home with my kids, trying to stay busy, or not. Some days I just sit on the couch. Some days I sit in my backyard and pretend there is no virus. Some days we watch movies all day long. Some days I get more accomplished than I would've in a week. Some days I create all day long and some days I don't even know what day it is. All of my shows, markets and events have been cancelled or postponed so its been pretty quiet for me. A thank-you to my family, friends and girlfriend for keeping me sane through endless 'facetimes' and 'just checking in' messages. 💖


Today I needed to paint. I just let it all out on the canvas. I don't do social media too much or surf the internet but when I do, I see SO much information that it sometimes gets so confusing in my head and I just don't know how to feel. When I have really big emotions, I paint. After running a few errands and checking in on the news (some, very tragic) I was feeling the full spectrum of all of the emotions. So I took a canvas and some paint, and this was the result. This one is pure emotion. What you see on the canvas was exactly how I felt. Its messy and colourful, and dark, sometimes frantic, sometimes calm. There are so many layers. I've added paint, taken it off, scribbled with inks, pencil, different mediums, used my hands and fingers, palette knives, the end of paintbrushes to create different textures. This was a mixed media frenzy.


Here are just a few of the emotions I have been feeling. Put them all together and I'm not sure what to call it. Not sure how to feel some days but I think that's ok. This piece represents fear, confusion, empathy, anxiety, sadness, hope, happiness, honesty, disgust, confidence, security, insecurity, feeling affected, sensitive, distressed, loss, grief, thankful, optimistic to mention a few.


You can see below the stages of this piece.

Enjoy this little time lapse video...

Fresh off the easel...


"Some days I don't know how to feel"

16" x 20" Original

Mixed media on canvas

$200.00 (1/2 price sale)

Available for purchase

If you are interested in this or any of my art, please contact me HERE. My prices have been reduced and I offer free local contact-less delivery or porch pick up from my studio.


I hope you are all coping, doing well, hanging in there, taking care of yourself, reaching out, staying in touch, or doing what ever works for you. These are really weird and different times, I do my best every day and that's good enough for me. There have been times where I've felt pretty helpless through this, so I've been doing what I can to help out local organizations and some amazing local causes that have started, and more than ever I will continue to support my local small businesses every chance I can. Every little bit helps.


And a huge THANK YOU to the store clerks, cashiers, delivery people, nurses, doctors, police, fire, ambulance and all essential and front line workers. You truly are amazing.


Also, sending my thoughts and prayers to the people of Nova Scotia right now during this terribly tragic time. Canada loves and supports you. ❤


Stay safe and well everyone. I can't wait to see you all so soon. xo ~K

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